Friday, January 27, 2006

hey losers

hey stop acting cute and saying yourself adorable la please. It's okay to try and gain a little bit of attention, but if u r trying very hard to, den u are becumming irritating. So, pls try to understand why ppl are avoiding u. People are SCARE OF U LOR. pls pls pls... stop the meow here and there thank you

Thursday, January 26, 2006

to u

Hey juz wanna tell u i really enjoyed the time spent with u yesterday.. i can't describe it really. Maybe becoz u looked happy, tt's y im happy too.. Will miss u when ur away =)

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

CT results

The common test results are back. Im so sad.. I took four modules and i failed one. Despite staying at home for the whole week studying hard for the papers, i still fail to pass all. I got 44 for the paper. I failed to achieve my desired result damn! I feel that im becoming more and more useless lor. Usually i set aims for myself and get the result... but nowadays.. im losing confidence liao. But surely i will work hard for the retest although it is capped at 50 marks -_- Arrrggg.. hope i don't disappoint my parents and get into year 3. Must not give up ! ('_')

Monday, January 16, 2006

to someone

I admit i like u,
i really do,
But i still prefer my lifestyle now..
Maybe too used to be alone,
love the freedom im having,
sorry IF i hurt u.
I really treasure the short period of time we had together,
And appreciate the care and love you've shown.
I hope we still can be friends k?

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Happy chinese new year

LOL another festive season where the chinese families come together for celebration. But wat you all know about CNY? The history behind it? Actually i knew quite alot =/ ok here goes:

Chinese New Year actually starts with the New Moon on the first day of New Year and ends on the full moon 15 days later. The 15th day of the new year is the Lantern Festival, which is celebrated at night with lantern displays or even fire crackers(not in sg of coz) and children carrying lanterns in a parade.

The Chinese calendar is actually based on a combination of lunar and solar movements. The lunar cycle is about 29.5 (or 30 days) kinda forgot already =/. In order to "catch up" with the solar calendar the Chinese insert an extra month once every few years (seven years out of a 19-yearcycle). It is the same as adding an extra day on leap year. Now you understand why according to the solar calendar, the Chinese New Year falls on a different date each year.

New Year's Eve and New Year's Day are celebrated as a family affair, a time of reunion and thanksgiving. The celebration was traditionally highlighted with a religious ceremony given in honor of Heaven and Earth, the gods of the household and the family ancestors.(Nowadays, they carry out the ceremony)

The sacrifices to the ancestors, which is the most important part of the rituals, unites the living members with those who had passed away. Departed relatives are remembered with great respect because they were responsible for laying the foundations family.

The presence of the ancestors is acknowledged on New Year's Eve with a dinner arranged for them at the family banquet table. This is the time where family members comes together. The spirits of the ancestors, with the living, celebrate the "starting" of the New Year as one great community. The communal feast called "surrounding the stove". It symbolizes family unity and honors the past and present generations.

I wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006


Prostitution, the oldest occupation in history, is now worked by the young childrens. Girls of 16 yrs old and below, are earning money by selling their own body. Get Real. Is this real? Yes. Singapore older men are flocking over to batam for paid sex. One guy they interviewed in the show was named Alex. Although his face was not shown, i could see that he's those kinda beng beng type la, from his other physical appearances.
First, he was asked why he would choose girls of 16 age, wouldn't it be very disgusting. He answered " If he have a daughter of 21 yrs old, he wil feel that way. But now he likes younger girls as they could satisfy his needs more"
Secondly, they asked him whether his wife knows about his sexual activities outside. He replied that his wife even came with him to batam. Even CHOOSES the girls for him. He feels that all guys are the same, have the needs to release. ROFL!
Thirdly, they asked him whether he will feel guilty about it. He answered no. Because he thinks that he's helping the girl by paying her money for them to support themselves.

Hmm... fyi, it is illegal to have sex with girls under 16 in Singapore, and 18 in Indonesia. And still they have so many cases of underaged sex. Is it really problems of complementing the laws?


Yes my common test over! Went to class on monday and result i passed csf( didn't went to lab). Heard from leong heng hehee. Went to take my laptop in the morning. Omg it was at Penjulu lane, C&P holding. Some ulu place in Jurong East. When i reach there by cab. I have no idea how to go to the "actual place" to get my laptop. The place was like a big factory, with trucks moving around everywhere. After asking the guards for the spot. I redeemed the laptop went to the canteen. Unwrapped all the boxes and realised it was actually nice looking, chio. omg. The comp spec is AMD Turion® Processor 3000+ (1.6GHz), 512MB, 60GB, Double Layer DVD±RW/±R, 6-in-1 Digital Media Reader slot, Integrated modem, Integrated 10/100 LAN Ethernet, Integrated wireless LAN 802.11bg, Integrated Bluetooth, Microsoft® Windows® XP Home, 14.0. Went home and check whether it's a new batch or old batch. Omg it's a 1X512 hehee new batch. heng ar...

Went to sch reluctantly after having my lunch(mum cook) at home. Thanks mom i love you =).
Sometimes i really hate China ppl. They are always like gong gong one la zzz. I was paired up with this china guy and he doesn't know anything about the fcs lab lor. Farking stupid!!! arrggg. im always trying my best to complete the lab and guess wat he did? he actually digged his nose in front of me, fuck! And if i dunnoe how to do the lab how? hong kan lor. must wait for everyone to finish den get answer from them -.-! Like this how to go off early! damn.. ok gd nite bth liao .

Thursday, January 05, 2006

ARrrggg bored

oh it's 3.30am, and im here absorbing languages required to communicate with a computer ? Visual basics paper at 8.30am later! Hopefully they set the paper through the past yr paper =).

Took FCS paper at 4 in the afternoon. Omg, it's a confirm pass lor. The paper is almost exactly like the one from the past yr's common test paper. hEHE. The hp ppl call liao. Time to redeem the laptop on Monday. Hey, monday? everyone got sch lor. Nvm la... plans to skip the morning lesson and bring the lappy to sch to install all the required programs hehehe. The place is at dunnoe which ulu part of singapore la.. zzz

ok back to eating books !

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Life's a bullshit to her, not me

At times, the smartest person tends to become too naive for their own good. I am a smart person, at the very least, I have the confidence to believe in myself that I am not exactly dumb. Not exactly dumb to believe that beautiful things remain as they are, not exactly dumb to believe that beautiful people remain as they are. I told myself not to feel remorseful over anything, coz I've tried my best to salvage the situation. I've learnt that silence is really a virtue as it makes the situation a whole lot better than arguing(which i really HATE). I've learnt that when it's time to let go, forcing doesn't do any good. I've learnt that the ending of a r/s that had already turned ugly, actually marks the beginning of a better phase in my life because I have emerged a stronger person.

People never reveal their true feelings, because they are afraid that whatever decisions they make will cause more hurt to the other party. I am disgusted by these untruthful beliefs and promises made to myself, as I know deep down within me that they are never going to come true. Yes i admit I tried to hypnotised myself, tried to make myself believe that she still feels for me. However, just like all her vows to me, everything failed. I will not wallow in self-pity anymore. She wanted me to let go and I did gracefully. If I can be so nice & considerate to someone else, why not to my ownself? I deserve a whole lot better treatment.She surrendered herself to elusive desire and now, my path of forgiveness showcased in bitter truth after I departed.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New Year, Good beginning?

Christmas eve spent in town, New year eve in ... Jason's house -.-
We met up in ruiwen's house waiting for them to finish their mahjong session. After their mahjong session, we went to sembawang shopping centre for our dinner. It was around 9.15 already. We wanted to try the restaurant "Taste of Thailand" but they close door already =(. So all of us have KFC instead.

After dinner, nobody has any idea where to go. So they decided to countdown in Jason's house. We started blackjack from 11.30pm to 5am in the morning. I won about 40 bucks in his house. Is it a good beginning =) I wanted to win a cab fare back to woodlands but instead i can make a trip back and fo haha.

Ate breakfast and went home to koon !